Success?
Personally, life has been good as of late. Work is starting to pick back up (after a period where I was totally not engaged), things are humming along with the boyfriend, and most friendships are doing just fine. So, given this background, it comes as no surprise that a few days ago a disruption happened.
I have the new Outlook at work where new messages "float" up in the lower right hand corner of the screen and then slowly fade away. I was working away on something, feeling really good about life when a message floated up. It read:
"Just thought I'd shoot you an email and check in. Wasn't sure which email was best....
Hope you're well!"
Yep, it was from the ex from four years ago that has caused me so much mental anguish. I saw the name and immediately got that queasy feeling in my stomach. I quickly read the note and then forwarded it to two friends for their input.
My immediate reaction was to ignore it, however, I started to think perhaps I should explain to him why I am ignoring him. He had called me on my birthday back in March and I had never returned the call. Perhaps if he knew how I felt he could understand and appreciate why I no longer want to maintain contact. Anyway, I noted this in the emails to my friends.
Of course, they both responded with the same answer - do not email him back. My friend Jeff summed it up best - "no reason to make Hurricane Eric (the ex) into a category 5 storm." He was right. What good will it do for me to email him, dredge up all those old memories and take me right back to where I had started (after making so much progress over the past few months)?
So I deleted the email. It felt good. I felt strong. In fact, I still feel strong. He has his life and I have mine. We dated a long time ago and it did not work out. Of course, we did "connect", however, that does not mean we have to try and continue to be friends. The reality of the situation was - I wanted more and he did not. I was weak and agreed to be friends hoping that he would come around. Big mistake on my part.
Suprisingly, this was a small blip. My personal life bounced right back on the track it was on. I have a smile on my face while I type this.......
I have the new Outlook at work where new messages "float" up in the lower right hand corner of the screen and then slowly fade away. I was working away on something, feeling really good about life when a message floated up. It read:
"Just thought I'd shoot you an email and check in. Wasn't sure which email was best....
Hope you're well!"
Yep, it was from the ex from four years ago that has caused me so much mental anguish. I saw the name and immediately got that queasy feeling in my stomach. I quickly read the note and then forwarded it to two friends for their input.
My immediate reaction was to ignore it, however, I started to think perhaps I should explain to him why I am ignoring him. He had called me on my birthday back in March and I had never returned the call. Perhaps if he knew how I felt he could understand and appreciate why I no longer want to maintain contact. Anyway, I noted this in the emails to my friends.
Of course, they both responded with the same answer - do not email him back. My friend Jeff summed it up best - "no reason to make Hurricane Eric (the ex) into a category 5 storm." He was right. What good will it do for me to email him, dredge up all those old memories and take me right back to where I had started (after making so much progress over the past few months)?
So I deleted the email. It felt good. I felt strong. In fact, I still feel strong. He has his life and I have mine. We dated a long time ago and it did not work out. Of course, we did "connect", however, that does not mean we have to try and continue to be friends. The reality of the situation was - I wanted more and he did not. I was weak and agreed to be friends hoping that he would come around. Big mistake on my part.
Suprisingly, this was a small blip. My personal life bounced right back on the track it was on. I have a smile on my face while I type this.......
posted by The Random Gay Guy at 11:22 AM
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